Spending Time With Family

Well, I am in Georgia, spending time with my family and introducing my husband to them. I love being here absolutely and I feel accepted and like I fit right in with all of them. I love it here with them. I have two beautiful nieces and a nephew. My brother Marshall made up a photo album full of pictures of our childhood to share with my birth family. I never expected that! I'm so happy. My adopted family seems to accept and be happy for my finding the birth family. I have more emotions than I could ever actually state but my biggest one (other than joy) is guilt. I feel guilty for the way my brother and sister were raised as opposed to the way I was raised. I had a privileged childhood and my siblings struggled and went without. I know that I shouldn't feel guilty because I had no actual control over it but I still do. I'm worried they will end up hating me for it. I don't know what I would do without Amanda, Christopher, or the kids. Gabby, my little snugglebug is curled against me at present and she is going to put on a special show for me. She is acting and directing it and I can't wait. I have an advanced ticket! I am just so disappointed that Chris can't be here for all this. I want to spend time with my brother too. It isn't right that he has been left out of all the fun. Well Amanda has made us dinner so I'm going to sign off for now and write more later. I will just leave it at, God must have had a plan. Amanda just said that she and Chris might have ended up in the foster system and had more of the things they needed but then we might never have found each other. So God has a purpose for everything, we may just not be aware of what it was. That is all for me. Peace out.